You would have turned 72 years today. Mum and I were talking the other day and we realized quite surprised that you would have been an old man by now.
It’s going to be 19 years in August since you died. In reality that means that you little girl has lived longer without you than with you. And your little girl isn’t that little anymore. I’m going to be 34 in two months. Remember? Exactly two months after your birthday. Your very own summer girl.
I have to admit that I don’t think about you very often any longer. Is that OK? But today I do, and I can’t help wondering what you would have thought about me. Have I turned into the person you wanted me to be? Have I full filled the dreams and hopes you had for me? I don’t work with house construction, architecture and design. According to mum that’s what you wanted me to do. To follow in your footsteps. I work with the Internet and have since I (finally) left school 8 years ago. You don’t know what the Internet is, do you? The Internet is an incredible computerized invention that more or less has changed everyday life for most of us. Mum isn’t very much into it, but then she’s never been a tech person. But I’m pretty sure you would have liked it.
I’m starting a new job on Monday as Internet Marketing Manager. For the first time in my life I’m going to have my own team to lead and direct. Do you think I’ll manage? It’s not like I can stomp off to my room when I don’t get my will through. But you did it and for many years. And we do have the same temper. But could you do me one favour? Watch over me some extra when I get into difficult situations dealing with my team.
I’ve travelled a lot, just like you wanted me to do. It has been an amazing experience. But my favourite place is still the UK and London. Yes, the country you sent me 20 years ago to learn English. Now I don’t know how many times I’ve been there, but it still fascinates me. Actually, I'm going there again next month.
Were you surprised when your kid brother showed up in heaven a year and a half ago? We were all very surprised. And that just a week after your oldest brother. Maria and I talk about it a lot. She misses her daddy. Especially now when she’s pregnant. Her due date is actually the 2-year anniversary of his death. Wouldn’t that be something?! A new family member on the anniversary of grandpa’s death. I’m sorry I haven’t given mum any grandchildren of her own. Or maybe I should say yet, but I’m not getting any younger. There is no man in my life either. I’m probably too independent and stubborn going my own ways. I wonder from who I get that from?!
To sum it all up, my life is wonderful and I’m happy. No matter how rocky the road has been from time to time over the years there is nothing I would like to change in the past. It has made me into to the person I am today and I’m proud of that. Your little girl is now a mature and grown up woman. I know you would have been proud of me.
I will always love you!
Your Daughter
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