Long walk

I started to feel quite anxious and restless yesterday. The past week’s interviews are messing with my mind. So are also thoughts of insecurity and what if, what if. Not good, not very good at all. Being cooped inside all day yesterday due to those terribly blisters and too much red wine on Friday night probably didn’t help either.

My heart was still racing this morning and my thoughts were still playing catch in my mind, so I decided it was time to cure this ailment with a long walk. Just to get some of those “feel good” hormones pumping in my blood again. I’ve just climbed out one of those black holes and I don’t want to go back there any time soon.

I started out by walking down to the harbour and the opera house. Today it was very windy down there, but seeing the ocean and our beautiful harbour always makes me happy. I guess that’s what you get growing up on the west coast. The ocean is always something you can count on. It’s always there, rain or shine. Summer or winter, and it never stay the same.

I walked along the harbour for about an hour, but the wind was more or less sucking the air out of me so I gave up and walked over to Slottsskogen. Everybody’s favourite park, right in the middle of the city. Taking some small paths up the hills I was soon alone. It was just the birds, the sky and myself. I’m amazed every time that I’m actually in a city, because you can’t hear any cars. It’s just you and nature and most of the time a very beautiful view. I walked around there for more than an hour and half. Snapping pictures and just admiring the nature. Even a deer jumped right out in front of me. I wonder who got most scared, the deer or me? Sadly enough I wasn’t quick enough to get out the camera, so no picture of Bambi.

Somewhere along this walk my mind stopped racing and I started to feel calm. Or at least calm enough to know that what ever happens, happens. I will survive, no matter what. What doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger.