Talking to Philip late Friday night or Saturday morning as it turned into, I vowed off chocolate and wine until my trip to London on June 22. That actually goes about all my eating. Not vowing all food off, but to be very careful about what I put into my mouth. Maybe it will be easier now when a I mini-goal to look forward to. I would so hate to have to go up one size when I go cloths shopping in London. I know it’s about to happen any day now.
How come it’s so hard this time? The motivation and drive I had last time is totally gone. I’m so well aware that I’m heading the wrong the direction, but still there’s no willpower. I’m (still) so happy about who I am and what I’ve turned into so I don’t’ see that I need to change. I’m enjoying life to the fullest for the first time in my life. Is NOT fair that I have to work my behind off (literally) just to stay skinny.
The only thing I really can do is to try again, and try again and try again. Not giving up got me all the way to lose 52 lbs. Then I really should be able to lose 16 lbs. One day at a time. Friday was four weeks until London, so I’ve been on the right path for two days now.
This week ahead is going to be difficult though. I’ve no idea how they eat at the ferry company. I like to bring my own food so I know what I’m eating. I’ve already been told that there are working lunches on Mondays with take out food. I can’t do much about tomorrow’s meal, but after that I hope I’ll be able to choice what to eat. I’m also pretty sure that I won’t make it to the gym this week. I will probably just be very happy to go home when the day is over. So I’ve promised myself that if it’s not totally pouring outside I’ll walk home. Note to self: Bring comfortable shoes. It takes about 40 minutes and that should burn some calories at least.
OK, one day at a time it is!
Hrm, I just realized I have a champagne testing on Wednesday, but surely that doesn’t counts as wine, does it?! :=)
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