Need of comfort

Back home again this evening I had a great urge and need of comfort food. I just feel so tired and worn out. A bit of anxiety is riding me too. Something that haven’t happened in a long, long time. So asparagus risotto and some Sauvignon Blanc from New Zealand - Saint Clair Vicar's Choice 2005 - it was. A combo that usually does the trick for me, but not tonight. The meeting in Copenhagen was a pretty good and efficient meeting, but I more and more doubt my competence and myself. I just don’t think I’m good and smart enough. Clearly if I was I wouldn’t feel this way. A colleague of mine that I trust and think very highly of told me to take some time off and just relax. According to him I’m getting close to break down/melt down and then things will get even worse. But I don’t do things like that. It’s weak, even though somewhere deep inside I know that would be the right thing to do. Just looking at the amount of emails that have accumulated in my inbox the last two days made me cry. I just can’t do this anymore.