I’ve been off work for a week now and I’m slowly getting into a more relaxed mood. The sad part is that I’m already thinking about that I need to go in on January 2 to close some 2006 statistics. Not a good sign I guess…
I’ve spent the last days reading a lot. More or less the ultimate relaxation for me. At first I had a hard time concentrating and felt quite restless, but now… Too bad I have to get up and make something to eat… Where is that butler, when I need him the most?! Right now I’m in the middle of Camilla Morton’s book How to walk in high heels, which I find highly entertaining. Don’t think I ever will own a pair of Mano Blahnik’s though… Nor will I ever be a Carrie Bradshaw…
Even thought the last day at work ended on a pretty high note with finding out that decisions we’ve been waiting for finally have passed two management boards and will pass (hopefully) the executive board in January, I can’t stop thinking about all the stress and pressure I’ve been under this autumn. Is it really worth it? Will it change if things change? Will there be a new role for me? Should I stay or should I go? How do I become stronger and believe in myself more? Should I fight or should just lie low? How come some people can’t take a woman (who at least on the outside) is strong and opinionated?
My colleague from IT and I talked a lot about this over a very long lunch right before Christmas and guess that’s what eating me now.
Need to get back reading instead of thinking...
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